Thursday, August 6, 2020
{ Besh Yil. }
Salaam. So i guess just like that 5 years has passed? and i told myself i would start blogging regularly. So many things have happened. Amca K left us in July 2016. my beloved Periyappa left us in November 2017. Tata left us the next month. Mamaneh, my mamaneh, left us in June 2018. and along the way, Amca N, Amca M, Amca A, they all went one by one. there were so many ups and downs that all in all, i believe it made me a stronger perosn. (i still cry over the smallest things, some things won't change i guess).
Salaam. So i guess just like that 5 years has passed? and i told myself i would start blogging regularly. So many things have happened. Amca K left us in July 2016. my beloved Periyappa left us in November 2017. Tata left us the next month. Mamaneh, my mamaneh, left us in June 2018. and along the way, Amca N, Amca M, Amca A, they all went one by one. there were so many ups and downs that all in all, i believe it made me a stronger perosn. (i still cry over the smallest things, some things won't change i guess).i would say 2018 was not a good year for us. but in that, we got ourselves Bob, Boobert Scoobert, Bobert the Don, Bobby. he became the light that brought joy to our home once again. and we decided that Bob should have a companion and thanks to a nanben i got Baby. Baby, Adik, the mother, cutie pie. and so there were two.
2019 i would say was kind of a good year for me. first of all my askim Saroja got married i am beyond happy for her. I got awarded the Model Worker Award from NTUC (yes i had to go up the stage to get it and okay i walked too fast). And then i was one of 10 nominees in the whole of Singapore to be selected by #inspirasiSG. and to top it all off, i was CEO of the year for 2019 at the place i have worked a donkey decade for, Royal Plaza on Scotts. Praises to the Almighty for all these extensions to His small creation right here. (M, oh M. you take up all the space left in my organs. the immense love i have for you)
And then along came 2020. with the pandemic and what not (but for the first time i had an ann.v to begin with. hayatim benim.) so as you know Bob is a boy, Baby is a girl, and on the leap day year of 2020, February 29th, we got little Bunny. and then there were three. they kept their appa/tata company, the lights of our lives and home.
I got sick. really sick. thanks to all the contemplations and procrastinations i finally got Splenomegaly (condition where your spleen enlarges beyond its actual size). hospitalized three days shy of my twenty seventh and spending my twenty seventh on the twenty seventh on the hospital bed, thinking how far i have gone astray from Him. and that He still loves me and wants me to remember Him. can't rule out cancer as a whole as of yet. (well there is a strong history of that on mamaneh's side of the family tree). well if everything goes as planned, 14th August will be the day i get my spleen removed . the tumor growing from within which is suspected to be a humongous blood clot which is pushing my kidney out of place. (yes i have googled enough of what happens when one removes their spleen and with His will, everything will be good). still waiting on the result of the PET scan which will determine if this enlarged spleen is caused by other cancerous parts of the body.
I pray that the Almighty gives strength and patience and perseverance to Appa for having to go through all of these yet again with me this time (after Mamaneh). now should be the time i take care of you, not the other way around. Almighty has His ways and plans and when the time comes, i will take care of you Appa. just hope i too, am strong enough to accept and overcome His tests.
Well i guess i shall end it here and since my hospitalization leave is most probably going to be till the end of the month, i will try to write, and not bottle up things within (apart from M). God is Great.
Sairashaj-