Friday, February 10, 2012
{ one hundred and ninety. }
Peace be upon all. right now, i'm relieved. i'm free. it wasn't as if i wasn't previously but now, i feel like God has removed this huge obstacle that's been sticking to my chest for a very, very, very long time. and now, i can breathe right again. only thing that keeps me wondering is why He kept you in it. i thank God, today, for sending someone like you into my life. i know you belong to someone else but, if you're happy, then i'm happy. and i'm not saying this as a bullshit cliche insincere catch phrase that people will say, i'm saying this with sincerity, whole-hearted sincerity. because when i see you happy, i'm happy. to be honest, every time i see you, i'm happy. i don't need anyone else. i don't. just you. and i know it'll never happen between us but i just like things the way they are. thank you for everything you've done for me, with me. for all the times you stood by me and cared. and even if it was harsh, you still did care. for my own good. for the times i broke down and you were there to say "i don't like to see girls cry. it pisses me off." for the times you try to get things you know you'll never get from me [you know what i mean ^^]. for all the constant nicknames you call me and every time you call me that, my heart jumps a little. and for every little other thing that i will distinctly remember. all i can say is, InsyaAllah, one day i will find my own you. so i'll see you in a few hours. goodnight/morning love. and benji madden.
sairah.