Thursday, July 28, 2011
{ Like that didn't. }
Good evening all. i just turned eighteen yesterday and it was a long tiring day, seeing that my school orientation was also ysterday. It was ok, new people, new things, new lecturers, new classmates, new stuff, awesome goodie bag and everything else in between. Went to meet dearest angel after at carousel. saw manmohan desai but didn't want to meet him. we had a conversation earlier and i was happy enough to see him. angel was such a sweetheart and the only girft i got for my eighteenth <3 so amazing how short times can change people's mindsets. And the fact that i am going back to school, after eight months of working at this amazing hotel restaurant and the people i already call my family. i will come back for work. i will. maybe not everyday, but i will still wok. for now, i just have to get my mindset back to school and realise that work is just a part time job. So besides that, i have been doing good. except for the fact that mnmhnds is just driving me crazy. The things he does to me, the things he made me feel, the things he show me. God, you need to help me because i am downright confused. Confused and blurred and scared and afraid. Is this for real? But for now, i like it. It makes me happy. But it's not for everyday anymore. So for that fact, i'm a little disheartened. But i'm still happy. Thankg God. Just that i need to get things clear/right. So, Happy belated birthday to myself and goodevening all. and mnmhnds.
Good evening all. i just turned eighteen yesterday and it was a long tiring day, seeing that my school orientation was also ysterday. It was ok, new people, new things, new lecturers, new classmates, new stuff, awesome goodie bag and everything else in between. Went to meet dearest angel after at carousel. saw manmohan desai but didn't want to meet him. we had a conversation earlier and i was happy enough to see him. angel was such a sweetheart and the only girft i got for my eighteenth <3 so amazing how short times can change people's mindsets. And the fact that i am going back to school, after eight months of working at this amazing hotel restaurant and the people i already call my family. i will come back for work. i will. maybe not everyday, but i will still wok. for now, i just have to get my mindset back to school and realise that work is just a part time job. So besides that, i have been doing good. except for the fact that mnmhnds is just driving me crazy. The things he does to me, the things he made me feel, the things he show me. God, you need to help me because i am downright confused. Confused and blurred and scared and afraid. Is this for real? But for now, i like it. It makes me happy. But it's not for everyday anymore. So for that fact, i'm a little disheartened. But i'm still happy. Thankg God. Just that i need to get things clear/right. So, Happy belated birthday to myself and goodevening all. and mnmhnds.
sairah.
Saturday, July 9, 2011
{ Because i like you. }
I don't know what i'm doing, i'm stressed, tired, worn out, disheartened, upset, hopeful, waiting. And confused. And i have three weeks left before school commences. I'm not sure if i'm ready. To leave work, and start school. And i'm eating cereal in the evening. And i'm not doing anything but watch masterchef australia back to back. I'm not sure if i should say something to you. I don't know if it's going anywhere. I haven't updated for almost two months. I'm jumping around everywhere. And m. is making me feel so confused and something i've never felt before. I'm not sure if it's good, but for now i like it. I'm not supposed to. But i'm supposed to be happy with what is given. But i don't know. Sairah, i really don't know what to do right now. Please help, someone. Fruitmussel is even confusing me further. Can't you just get it in your thick skull that i fucking like you. please. Work is actually making me happy. I want to go to work everyday. I want to feel this tired everyday. But i can't, i have school in three weeks. I'm not ready. But right now, i'm watching Naan Mahaan Alla. And it's a great movie not even one hour into it. So hello to work tomorrow. And goodnight fruitmussel and everyone else.
I don't know what i'm doing, i'm stressed, tired, worn out, disheartened, upset, hopeful, waiting. And confused. And i have three weeks left before school commences. I'm not sure if i'm ready. To leave work, and start school. And i'm eating cereal in the evening. And i'm not doing anything but watch masterchef australia back to back. I'm not sure if i should say something to you. I don't know if it's going anywhere. I haven't updated for almost two months. I'm jumping around everywhere. And m. is making me feel so confused and something i've never felt before. I'm not sure if it's good, but for now i like it. I'm not supposed to. But i'm supposed to be happy with what is given. But i don't know. Sairah, i really don't know what to do right now. Please help, someone. Fruitmussel is even confusing me further. Can't you just get it in your thick skull that i fucking like you. please. Work is actually making me happy. I want to go to work everyday. I want to feel this tired everyday. But i can't, i have school in three weeks. I'm not ready. But right now, i'm watching Naan Mahaan Alla. And it's a great movie not even one hour into it. So hello to work tomorrow. And goodnight fruitmussel and everyone else.
sairah.