Tuesday, June 1, 2010
{ Holding up the roof. }
Selamats. I've been missing for a few days but no one seems to be bothered so haha let's talk to myself oh yeas been checkingout a lot of hot male models i mean male models from everywhere and damn it they are hot they are born to be models oh god i have one in particular if he's not hot then no one deserve to be a model go look it up his name's Rafael Lazzini damn it i can't stop looking at him i swear and i have enhanced my tumblr i love it now yeahoo so life has been pretty fucked up for me lately i miss having that someone always beside me and making stupid faces or singing with his funny antics or just talking and talking and the stupid jokes and stories or getting angry at him for the truth he tells me but i still appreciate it for not lying and late meetups cause he's always late and the inexpensive things we spend on that actually helps me save my money or the lines he used to say to me when i give attitude face which i give to him a lot and i pity him for having to tolerate it all but making me smile afterwards and teaching him how to go about having blogs or tumblrs because he's not good in it but still wants one or him telling me to stop wasting my time on liking ehemehem[though at one point of time he did say ehemehem was handsome hahahaa i liked it] but i still do and him winking at me when i look at him and me giving back a stupid/horny face or asking me to download hindi songs when he's supposed to get dressed to meet me or calling to tell me there's no green and being happy cause he'll have to buy otherwise and going to meet that person and feeling guilty/bad cause i'll give a can't-be-bothered face and everything else in between and the thing i miss most is to look to my side and always seeing him there but i guess not anymore now when i turn i see nothing no one that just hurts the heart in my chest in every way possible but it's alright as long as i get to at least say a word to him i should be happy enough but actually i'm not god what's wrong with me Dear God please give me the utmost strength to control my emotions if i'm being too emotional and please make me more independent in life so i don't feel so lost when he's not there please God Amin. Genight and Gebye.
sairah.
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