Sunday, January 31, 2010
{ All i wanted was you. }

Don't you just hate it when you get your hopes us high on a certain person and then nothing, nothing. Nothing. It sucks so bad that you hate yourself for thinking something's going to spark. Even a small spark. How stupid of me. Alright back to reality, selamats. Am feeling good about myself for completing my math homeworks. Chemistry can wait. I need more time on that. Am getting the hang of mathematics and will heed Shzn's advice. Thanks yous babe ;] And i borrowed new books today. Was browsing at the library alone and i felt upset over somethings. Just feel upset and disappointed at the situation they are in right now. But it sucks even more that i cannot do anything about it. Gahh~ But be optimistic. I pray to God that everything will be alright, slowly, and i will be patient and stick by my words. So tennis is over and S.williams and R. federer clinched yet another title under their belts. Am so impatient about R.Rumble. If only timing here and there was the same. I wouldn't have to wait until tomorrow to find out right. Furthermore i'll be in school studying what also i don't know. Gaaahh~ Am now fighting over Arsenal and Man u on Fb with ex-classmates. hahah. Gebye and Genight. sairah.
Labels: why do i always have to do that when i know it's gonna hurt me?
Saturday, January 30, 2010
{ Upon pillars of sand. }

Selamats. Missing for two days or so, damn tired. A-ok, what happened, oh yeah, Friday was the day girls in canteen fought, and i tell you, it was like watching wwe divas live in front of your eyes, haha. Funny shit. Pity that innocent boy. Smackdown was awesome though J.morrison lost, again. pissed or what. S.michaels and R.mysterio match, wasn't the first best ever. Today, sort of fun day at madrasah with yati. Ustaz was totally sarcastic towards me in a joking kinda way. gahhh~ But was fun though only five were present for today's class, wtftw. Met momsy at S-11 court after and with brother and makcik and cousins and rojak-ed then tampines mall-ed. Stumbled upon mus ontheway and gave her a big big big hug. I miss that woman. Cotton on and met Radradrad again. haha. Kept disturbing her at work and she was practically shouting across the store cause of sales and stuff. Brother got his supposed 'straw' hat while i got my top[s]. Got myself a cheapo bag while mom got hers and home-d with pizza and sugarcane juice. And now i will sleep because i will wake up early tomorrow for early spring cleaning and library and study and homework completion. Gebye and Genight.
sairah.
Labels: Who knew one could share so much in common?
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
{ To see the beauty in ugly. }

Selamats. N.Djokovic vs J.W Tsonga live on Star Sports. Shit i've never been so nervous for tennis in my life. I bet i'm not gonna be this nervous for royal rumble man. But yes am excited shit. Hate it when my favorites go against each other. I don't know who to support and it's kinda stupid to say yay when he gets the ball and still say yay when the other gets it. Urghhhh. So enough of tennis, school has been going pretty well. Met up with H.y just now, OMG it's been months since i last saw her. Went straight to meet her after recess and gave her a big sweaty hug, haha. I had pe so too bad babe! Had no lesson afterwards so headed to the hod room with her and Mr N. and had a long/fun/hilarious chat filled with laughters. Enjoyed that moment, totally. pe was fun too, abd.s me and n. played badminton and we were takraw-ing at the same time. haha. It's possible. Takraw match yesterday, not the best i've seen but saw some pretty awesome moves and hits. So much for last regu start at five yeah. Gahhhh. The way you stood up for me the other day, wrong but i appreciate it so much. Thank you ;] Have been very very tired these few days for God knows what reason but i'll get through. And lastly, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DEE! I'm so sorry i forgot your birthday, i remembered just just now. You also never tell me. I still remember the times when we slacked at 900++ when you were still with si jejaka nasib malang. haha. It's been great knowing you and all the best i everything that you do alrightoss! Ala, i'm on the fourth floor, just go up one floor and you'll see me, haha ;D Ok now i am going to concentrate on my tennis and then for my RAW at ten. Gebye.
10 months, ten months and i;m still counting. can twenty six not come? it keeps reminding me of you, i hate it, but i like it. lovelovelove.
sairah.
Labels: it doesn't necessarily need to beautiful people on the outside to fall in love, maybe the inside is what matters.
Monday, January 25, 2010
{ To bury the castle. }
Selamats. Oooh i love the colour. Don't you love the colour? & it's all natural. haha. Tell that to that woman who wants to act as if she ruled the girls. Oh please. The least you could do was to ask first before you start accusing and embarass yourself. Stupidshit. But it's ok. Serve you right. So school was mediocre. Free periods in between and self study for literature. Art, am getting started already. Oh, Mdm F., thanks for the chocostick. And i want you to know you are special to me too. ;] And i will make sure i do well for it. Remedial Chemistry has got to be the worst one i've ever went for in my whole chemistry-studying life. Seriously. And he spilled acid onto his face. But don't worry, i told you you won't get disfigured la please. haha. His takraw match tomorrow and i will be watching by the sidelines cheering him on like i always do except for the time i didn't know who he was. So let's talk about tennis now, S.Williams in, sister in, J.W Tsonga in [yay!] , A.Murray in[yayy!], N.Djokovic in, [yayyy!]. Will stop procrastinating as much as i have been and will start doing things on time instead of sleeping my head of like a bear during hibernation. Stupid people tryna show off their awesome bikes. Noisyshits. Gebye.Labels: Il Divo stuck in my head since forever.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
{ When everything ends. }

Fuck. Arsenal lost. Fuckstokes. Bingit or what man. Selamats. I finally did my math homework, on matrices. Easiest topic of math in my opinion. And don't you girls just hate it when you're having your j.f.d? I've never had this problem in my life of j.f.d. and it really is a pain in the whispering eye you know. My hips are hurting so bad, only the left side. And it is not fun walking around with an umbrella in the house. Seriously. But it's ok. There's always that first time in everything yeah. And i love my new gio pants. Yes men pants. And i love it. Coincidentally, both me and elderbro wore the same one and even the almost-same shirt. Boria ah. And my stupid flip phone stupid on and off and on and off and now all my contacts are gone from my SIM card. I only have eleven contacts left and frustrates the kejujus out of me. Anyone, please text me so i know your numbers. If you need to. Thanks loads. So now i will be back to that slim phone again. And i will be ironing then to bed. Gebye.
Labels: hello Jack Purcell.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
{ 8-6-4 hundred seconds in a day. }

Selamats. Got transferred to fourexpressfour. When i'm starting to adapt there, they change me. But it's ok. i got Abd.s and old classmates including yy. Lkmn insisted that he stays there so he stays there. And now i feel so so much better. Am starting on literature already, alone. And have received my art coursework questions. And now, i know what i'm doing and have targeted to complete by June. InsyaAllah. Y.s irritated me so much that i had to do something he did not enjoy. hardiharhar. And also kuti-ed his pimple. yeayya. And am happy now that i will be in a class photo, four express four. But still i want my old one. And i saw ♥, yes i did. And i was happy but he wasn't. I was happy. And i will start to study for my math test tomorrow. I am happy and smiling like an idiot. Gebye.
p.s. Ki come back la. i feel so alone during free periods. And don't worry, be optimistic ok. Life has to go on. love ya :}
sairah.
Labels: Believe that everything you imagine can be made real.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
{ We have a plan. }

What a horrible day today was. Alhamdulillah, i have Ki and Abd.s to help me through. Not mentioning Zf and Lkmn. I have never seen people do such ridiculous things during __. How i wish i could play soccer with the dudes. I'm really not feeling it. I just can't and i don't think i will ever. But like every single soul who cares said, i'm back here to do better and prove myself i can actually do better. And i will. Thanks to mr bitch[how wrong that sounds, i don't know.] for the tonnes of chocolates and foodsmuggles. Please don't leave me, please stay until the final day of my final paper. I'm not sure if i can make it without you. Please. And sometimes when you don't know what else to do, you just start tearing up for no reason at all. That weakspot, i have to throw away and always tell myself that aal izz well. Hopefully tomorrow and the rest of the days will be better. InsyaAllah. And wrestling starts in a few, so Gebye.
sairah.
Labels: But it's always gonna come right back to me.
Monday, January 18, 2010
{ I wanna fall in love with you,again. }

Basically i can kiss everything goodbye today, except for wrestling. Such short notice, school tomorrow. And i will feel like a complete skedush in that new class. Everyone will obviously be giving me faces which i hate but it goes on i guess. Pity Ki who has to work alone from now onwards, but hopefully i get to meet him in between everything else and that Abd. gets into the same class i am in or it would'nt be how i wanted it to turn out. And early morning meet up with Ki was awesome. Travelled all around wherever possible, looking at trees, people, schoolkids, museums, and what not. And not forgetting the snaps we had. Awesome early day and probably the last. So right now, i am almost prepared for what's to come tomorrow and i will, be, ready. And who knew, F.s is her sibling right?! They look nothing alike and there has never been news of them or anything. What a shocker. I should've been there man. Opportunity numero uno missed. But it's okay. Everything else packed, with a storybook and a tie so off to bed i go. Gebye.
sairah.
Labels: And maybe someday we'll figure all these out.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
{ It sucks but what the heck. }

I pray that i never have to feel what Crystal Attenborough might've been feeling in that picture there, but sometimes, it just comes naturally and there is no way i can push that to someone/place else. It lives within me but i thought, and i thought. Why should I bother when they don't right? Because it only hurts me more to think that they forgot about me, even for a second. So let it go. So I will. I have a few whom i know i can depend on and from what i found on Shzn's blog, hopefully there are such people in my life, maybe i have had, or maybe there are yet to come. So let's just be happy with where i am right now and smile. smile. smile. And i bought my cd, the last piece available. Lucky me. So gebye.
Let it go, let it roll right off your shoulder, don't you know, the hardest part is over, let it in. Let your clarity define you in the end, we'll only just remember how it feels. "R.Thomas-these small hours.
sairah.
Labels: these stupid things in life and the doubts they create in minds.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
{ But not so remarkable. }
How two smiles can make my day at the very last minute. What a normal day today was. Lots of laughter during class, when he didn't realise we were laughing at him, not with him. fun times. Will be changing this crappy bimbit of mine to sixsevensixzero in the third month, God's Will. And am not getting any phone calls from school regarding school or what not. Six movie is always great after watching for sometime. Fetched mom at a. and saw abang f. who actually smiled at me. I swear i thought he wouldn't've recognised me but he did. And a short embarassing moment while buying my drink at , as the mother still calls it, Salihin. :} that short moment made me smile like an idiot and hearing her say that made me smile even more. What a great end to my Saturday night. Anticipating Arsenal's match at midnight. So Gebye.
sairah.
Labels: you gotta lose your mind to detroit rock city.
Friday, January 15, 2010
{ Ta ra rum pum. }
Today might just be the last day i'm coming back to work for Mdm. A. I will somehow miss doing that. I've always dreamt of getting admitted to a polytechnic and help her out till april when i'm due in school. But it doesn't seem so huh. But it is alright. I will try harder and make sure i push myself and b the end of the day, the final paper, i will tell myself, i did my best. My very best. So there it was. Thanks to all who have encouraged me to push and do better this time round. God's will.
Sorry to ashraf whom i haven't linked. Shutup bodoh you, asswipe. I will linnk you :P
Most probably be starting school next week, which day, class, i am not sure yet, but will find out soon and hopefully they put me in the same class as Abd.s. Akm.Z taught me history and pulled me to listen to his podcasts. boy,boy. And then for the last time,(maybe) walked home with Ki and lunched at Pops. Oh yes, threw up three whole courses. And i'm much better now. Watching Varaanam Aayiram, so far, ok. Surya and hindi accent. kya language hai. And now, i am sad because half of my fishes died and J.mrrison lost, furthermore, they'll show that movie while i'm at madrasah. But aal izz well. So madrasah and market awaits me tomorrow and i want to get myself a new pair of J.Purcell. Gebye.
sairah.
Labels: when i was a little boy.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
{ Nothing can change what you said. }

In one afternoon, not even leaving the house, i have seen how judgmental people can be. You look at them, and you think you know them. And must i say, looks can change, you'll never know, if tomorrow, you suddenly have flaws on you pretty/handsome face. But a good heart, goes nowhere. I've seen a lot of people in my short sixteen years of life. And i hope that i stumble upon a someone who actually gives a shit about the inside not the outside. So with that being said, i think that cliche phrase should come to mind every time we try to judge a person just by looking.
Will be retaking my o levels and going up to 5N. Will put everything to a pause and be assured to face the fact that studies is my number one and only priority this year. Am trying my best to stop wrestling. I will try. So gebye.
sairah.
Labels: michael buble meets madison square garden.
Monday, January 11, 2010
{ No matter what they say. }
Selamats. I expected to retake my o levels and move up to five normal. but the biggest disappointment was my art. Biggest diappointment in my whole 10 years of studying. and if i get Mdm F this time, i will sure to improve, pray hard i don't get ____. Did not expect a good english result but i did. So i will come back next week for school, and i will put everything to a pause. No more slacking, no more procrastinating, no more " i will do it" but i didn't. Am trying my best to compromise my wrestling. But i will see to that in another day. But i will give all out this time. To all who did well, especially Ki, and Sh.b and Sh.s, Congratulations on your success and continue to work hard. To those who didn't, there is always a second chance no matter what. And Thank God for me, i'm able to get that. So will make full use of it. And to have A.s beside me helping me through, and me helping him is less burdening. Will work this week, the last week. So goodbye everything. Hello school/papers/books/homeworks/burning the midnight oil. Cheer up people, shit happens, but be sure not to repeat it again. And read what it says up there alright. Thanks to those whom cheered me up especially W. Appreciate it very much. Gebye.
sairah.
Labels: i'm gonna do my best to make it right.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
{ Red indian slaps. }
It's one thing to hear and another to listen,It's one more thing to talk and another to speak.It's too late when we die,to admit we don't see eye to eye.
The living years; during Mdm A.A's lesson.
sairah.
Labels: why do i feel it's good.
Friday, January 8, 2010
{ For once in my life. }
Today, awesome tiring day. Work in the morning, Chats with teachers in the office, jokes, and wipeout in the english room. Lunch at Pizza Hut and spotted a cute caucasian baby with an old dad. Printed pictures which were apparently of the wrong size but what the heck, will do it some other time. Headed back to work till four forty and packed to leave for TP's open house which sucked though we met up with Taufiq J. Left soon after and headed for NYP. Awesome. yes. Hot guys, girls checking him out, guys checking me out. gahhh~ and got a goodie bag. How stupid of me not to realise the goodie bag i wanted was from NP when we are actually at NYP. shut up you. And noise everywhere, girls screaming. And we stumbled into Taufiq J's elder brother who looks exactly like him. We thought we were seeing double, gosh do they look alike. Went around the whole school with a few snaps and left for Macds at tampines. Ate, filled, home. Now my stupid laptop is giving me internet problems. Assholefaceman. And now, watching MJ live at Bucharesti on DVD. Awesome or what. Waiting for my Smackdown which has been delayed due to tennis. Impatient right now. Thanks for the amazing day you. Will upload pictures asap. So gebye.sairah.
Labels: Living on a prayer.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
{ Nasha ye pyaar. }
Selamats mak nusiahs and what nots.
Work as usual for today, b'fast prata with Ki on a rainy Thursday morning. Don't you just hate it when you're not even 5 metres away from the shelter to te bus door, and everyone starts pening their annoying umbrellas which come in all sizes and close it right in your face ? gerhh~ Annoying S'poreans. A little rain won't kill you, it won't even corrode your skin. But it's ok. Patience is crucial. Went to work and all the HODs were having a little gathering, as usual, Mr N and his annoying antics, but it was fun. And i am sure to get a place if i happen to retake, he said i had an exception due to medical leave. joy~ Stumbled upon Tengku, smiles and byes. And Hema. yeap. Will have a long planned day ahead with Ki and am going to eat now. So gebye.
sairah.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
{ I want F. Qureshi as my bestfriend. }
Selamats.
Madh.'s smile, cute face, wtf wife, adorable son. love him.
Work, Ki, High & present, Fairuz & news, Izz & shyness.
3 laptops, hindi songs, internet cable, work, surf, videos.
People, faces, btihces, fatboy, teachers and questions.
Work, 5.30pm, A.sy, relieved, happy, bubble tea, work.
Dinner, Izz, talks, Zara♥, big hug, talks, waves goodbye.
Pay, G2000, p&b, shirts, save up, shop, shop, happy.
Walks home, unwraps gifts in fishville, happy, smile.
Bret Hart, monday night Raw, excited, ten o clock, fast.
Results, 11th Jan, nervous, expecting the worse, yes.
Tired, unbathed, sweating, phone with Ki, crap, blog.
Now, will put down the phone, bathe, pray and Gebye.
sairah.
Labels: We're stil standing here.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
{ Careless Whisper. }
Goodnight alot of people. K let me say this officially first,
HAPPY SEVENTEENTH MUHAMMAD HAIRI BIN AZMAN.
May you be successful in whatever your heart takes you to do. And am very lucky to have found such an awesome/irritating/loving/annoying/caring friend like you, and i have pretty much said everything i needed to in your facebook message so i hope you had a great day ok? You know i love you. Just hope you're less annoying now :}
Ok so that's said and done. Working tomorrow, schooling time. But i will not fret. It's better than me sleeping my skedush off and waking up at 1 just to frustrate the mother. Today, is a day of change. The father's talk really woke me up. No more laze. I will get up and go do it. But it sucks to know that i cannot do anything about that. But i will change. Mark me, i will. So right now, i will continue my pastings of junk and what not and go to bed soon so i can get up for tomorrow. So gebye.
sairah.
Labels: wasted chance that i've been given.
Monday, January 4, 2010
{ Aal Izz Well. }
Goodmalam. I had an awesome day with Ki. Tong Seng for b'fast/lunch, Bugis street for gift shopping, some old building for tickets, and went to watch 3 Idiots. And i must say, that movie, best movie i've seen. In my life. yes it is. For all who hasn't, go. Thanks to Ki who made me watch it. I wanted to at first but had doubts and luckily i put my doubts aside and went on to watch. Tears,laughter, romance, what mroe could you ask for from a movie yeah. It really touched me. And boy, Madhavan is cute. haha~ But has grown fatter. oh what the skedush he's still cute. And Amir Khan, doesn't look 40+, he looks even younger than Madhavan. Ok no complaints. Movie was awesome. so many climaxes you don't even know where they'll surprise you. So many words and phrases that'll leave you thinking. and if ever, have such great friends like that. I will never have to care about anything else. Walked here and there and went home. So now, i have officially switched back to blogger. no questions. I'll be here Permanently. yes. so up to you to relink or what not. and tags, just comment, and leave your name. Ok am pretty much done for the whole day. And Hairi, Happy Birthday In Advance. I've already wrote the message in your inbox so the proper post will come tomorrow. Gebye.
sairah.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
{ On a Saturday night. }




Random pictures of Adam Lambert which i found to be very straight and un-gay. Actually, if he were to be a guy, who is straight, he could get any girl he wants you know. But sad to know he isn't. Well that is life. And unfortunately for some people, they just don't get treated the same way as others do. It doesn't necessarily mean you're a girl you can't play sports with they guys right ? And doesn't mean she doesn't have any girlfriends around she can't hang around with the guys right ? It's not like she's gonna flirt with him or something. I mean, it's just sports and slacking you know. Just ridiculous. And to think sometimes she prefers being a boy rather than a girl. But what the skedush. Heck yeah man. And i finally finished watching Juno. Awesome!! Two thumbs up, and if i had a third, then three thumbs up. And also done watching Role Models, oh, that, i'd give two thumbs and two toes man. I mean, S.William Scott, Paul Rudd, two other dudes whose names i do not know, dress up as kiss ? HOT! Ok i am tired now. so gebye.
sairah.
{ wretched love, no. }
THEY SHOULD PUT THAT 70'S SHOW BACK ON STAR WORLD.