Thursday, December 31, 2009 { Death and all his friends; }



2009 has been sucha great/not great year. One thing i'll remember about it is the fact that there has been a lot, and i mean alot of deaths. Even today, Indonesia's respected president , Abdurrahman Wahid passed away. Not forgetting, Brittany Murphy, The Rev, Eddie Fatu[Umaga] , Captain Lou Albano, Billy Powell , Farah Fawcett, Patrick Swayze, Jeremy Lusk , Robert Enke, Isma's brother, and not forgetting, the great human whom the world labels as Pop Icon, Michael Jackson. It's a pity to know that the good always die young. And hopefully 2010, God doesn't need as much people as he needs this year. And i think i have set my goals, which i WILL accomplish;

• Lose weight and become more thinner than brother.
• Stop procrastinating and finish what i've started till the end.
• Listen to parents and do what they ask without fail,unless..
• Stop splurging so much money on food. Save and lose.
• Stop all the boyish clothings. Be more feminine.
• Try my best not to let my friends down. Be honest.
• Lastly, start praying five times a day. Repent.

There. If there is more to come, i will put them down. And i will, accomplish all of these. From what i hear, if they can do it, so can i. It's just whether i want to put my mind to it. So i will. And if i don't do well for my o levels, say if i retake, IF , i will study and study and put all i've studied into good use this time. From the start. And i will surely miss all these times with friends, and loved ones. Ups and downs, have proved to me that not everyone can be trusted. And it shows some of the people who've proved to me that they'll always be there for me. And i thank all who have been a part of my life in this wonderful year through pain and joy. And last, Happy New Year. :}

i think you're gonna disappoint me on this new year's eve. i don't know why you're doing this. it's basic courtesy to call and say you can't. I'm waiting like an asshole here and you dont seem to care abit. But it's ok. Let's just see what you come up with this time. Now you've ruined my eve. What a great start. Thanks alot yeaahh.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009 { life after work. }


Guten tag. Long tiring day which had to end.
i loved it. i loved it.But will be seeing you after
New Year. And am looking forward to it. yess.
Oh ho oh ho. I think i found my start. Optimism.
Something i can always rely on.Someone i can
look up to and never care about other people's
thoughts. I'll do it. I will prove them wrong.
InsyaAllah. God, please guide me through all.
And ironically , this person happens to be Kumar.
hahahaha. I'm serious, no joke. serious shit.
And now i will go and call Sy and see if he can
make the thirty first extra special this year.
Bebo keeps repeating in my very mind.
I enjoy alot. alotlotlot.don't leave. So gebye.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009 { Come and go in life. }

{ Changes and changes. }

Blogs, blogs and more blogs. that's just what i do. i get tired of one so easily and i move on to the other.
Sometimes i don't get what i'm doingat all. But sometimes i do. Maybe somethings are meant to be dull.
Some meant to be filled with colours. With life. And now i move on to this. I still update that blog but i
figured, i needed a change, a total change in 2010. I mentioned to a few people that 2010 will be the
year that i got a wardrobe change, no more skateshoes,no more caps, and whatsoever but, i thought
to myself. That is not me. I will change, mark me, i will. But there's just that part of me i can never want
to leave behind. And if no one can accept me for who i am, and if looks is more important in a friend
than one's heart, then i guess i'm better off to love Benji Madden himself. or just love myself. Gebye.